Sea Changes
April flew by! Up and left. April we decided we had enough tomfoolery in Colorado and it was time to move to New Mexico! So here we are now, outside Santa Fe. Some of my very best friends live under an hour away, the foliage is vast, and there’s more than one direction to travel in! It’s a cute duplex we found to rent, as we find our house to buy. We feel the purchase place will be in or around Nambe.
I’ve joined the work force as a HVAC/plumbing apprentice. It’s not set in stone yet (job acceptance wise) though I don’t see why it wouldn’t be being three days in. It’s a really neat job! Traveling NM and maintaining comfort in peoples homes. Learning these internal systems is interesting. The subculture of New Mexican blue collar folk is an interesting and alien experience.
I’m getting used to the flow of everything still, we moved in only a week ago. Though I feel like a lasting happiness awaits me here. I feel like I’m increasing my ability to endure stimulation (an issue I’ve had forever) generally healing in ways that will allow for lasting deep inner peace.
I’ve begun studying wind! It happened quite spontaneously, Yani was hoping a storm (visible a few miles away) would come through, I felt the wind to see if the clouds would be coming this direction and it was unfavorable at the time. A few minutes passed and I noticed the wind began blowing in a u shape direction. First hitting my right ear, then blowing at my face, then eventually the left ear. It occurred to me then that the wind has directional flow! (Which would’ve been obvious had I ever paid real attention to the weather channel or in the dang school). I noticed too that the directional movement repeated, so it would always hit my right ear, face, left ear then pause. It hit me then that the winds are like three dimensional waves!
It’s kind of neat that like fish we swim around our breathing substance. It’s also kind of neat that fish are slightly two dimensional in their existences, and more advanced sea life are closer to a three dimensional experience. That could be said for us too, and the fourth dimension. (The dimension of no inside or out - or of both simultaneously) maybe the fish work their way out of the water, and maybe we work our way out of the air. Who knows? Who has the time?
Lately in the background of my mind, like the choir backing a lead, I have been noticing the holes in the world. The things that don’t add up when you zoom out. I heard Spanish being spoken and my ignorance of the language made it gibberish. The fact that any language can be gibberish, means it’s all gibberish. The trained mind is what the choir has been showing me, and the emptiness that lies beneath the fabricated form. A Macy’s parade of meaning. Faith is the glue of this world.
I’ve been encouraged to see past myself more lately too. I see my habitual thoughts and beliefs. How they are personal and held on to. That they, along with language are made of nothing and can be changed into something better. I’m realizing how fluid the world is, and I’m seeing more of the mechanics that make up the whole “situationship” we find ourselves in. It makes a world, where softly, almost translucent I can glide through.
Closer and closer to the highest love I go! They say there are many ways to the top, I say there are as many ways as there are things that can have a way. So personal the experience of peace and love, so unique the obstacles in each path. Blueprints and maps! While the blueprint is the same, never so much the map.
Anyhow! That’s enough for this time here, I felt the pull and April was dry. I hope y’all have a wonderful day!
Love, David
