Illusions + MORE!
Hi hey howdy!! Three greetings really brings home a feeling of home, comfort and famili-arity! I’d reckon anyway. That’s the goal here, just some folks, shooting a one sided breeze together. Quality time behind a one sided mirror! I’m glad you’re here, glad we’re all doing well enough to be able to do this at all.
Got some things blowing around the ol’ noggin, wilder than usual I reckon. So I’d recommend either buckling up or rereading the intro, or doing any number of other things under this sun we share.
I’ve come to begin to consider, that linear thought is an illusion. I’ve become a better observer of my thoughts, and they are like the wind. They fluctuate wildly, they go from here to there and often counteract each other. I’ve detached from the vague feeling of it all moving smoothly along, each thought supposedly flowing smoothly into the other. Cold observation, “the observer” the one who witnesses the thoughts, feelings and experiences of the YOU. The thing that watches everything and everyone, the dreamer I call it. I been connecting more and more with it. And the findings are bizarre, it’s amazing I can even be here typing this to you all.
What I’m getting at here, is while watching the ol’ mind, and seeing how fluid the world is, how relationships rise and fall, how the times gone by have been building blocks for the times of now, how this thing of life keeps moving, shaking, transforming. It didn’t feel right to think of it as a line, or a stream. I think it’s more (in its honesty) oceanic. A layered thing, moving in many directions at once. This is true of the world at large, the one outside the window happening without our knowledge.
I think what makes the linear illusion work is attention, when you focus, it does become a stream. When you let go, it goes back to the sea. So maybe it could be linear if you focus hard enough, a personal linear dream. The trouble with it in that way, for me anyhow, is that things don’t make much sense when you look at the whole picture. It’s my focus inlayed on this grand untamable thing. A wave trying to make sense of the sea.
The past two weeks have felt insane inside, before arriving at these ideas. I felt really stuck, claustrophobic, like I had nothing to hold on to, the walls of the mind slippery. It was a transition from the river to the ocean! A new perspective is all, less me, more reality.
Another little illusion I’ve been pondering on, Polarity! Mentally especially, scientifically too, (things so hot they’re cold) I’m firm in this one, I reckon if you go far enough on most any pole you will arrive at it’s opposite. There’s also the willingness to bend, that can bring opposing sides together. History is littered with examples, especially the personal, visceral, day to day history. (Too much coffee causes debilitating diarrhea) irony is the practice of this. It’s the equivalent of making the full loop on the swing set, often dangerous.
The former thought, of nonlinear living has set my mind free! I don’t know how, it almost feels like that river was more of a birth canal and I finally squeezed through.
Speaking of birth canals, I frequently describe the San Luis Valley like a womb. You can’t do much here in terms of external change, the people of sticks in the bums won’t allow it. What you can (and must) do is change internally, then (should you be so blessed) it squeezes you out, back into the world! We have reached that point! Leaving this canal very soon.
Rambly and brambly this here.. I plan to make this next one more creative in nature, less based in reality and mind matters. We’ll see! It finally feels possible again though. Thank the good Lord!
Much love, for you AND yr kin
David
